I am very bored at work today.... and I found two pictures I like :)
I tend to write people letters with the things I should have said to them in person and couldnt get the guts to say. At least they got it right!? Also, I have a friend who keeps telling me I HAVE TO play the stupid dating games if I am to find or fall for someone or get the ones I like to fall for me. I really struggle with this because ....It feels so decieving and dishonest. (honesty note: I am not saying I am perfect and I have never decieved anyone, I have. I am not proud of it.)
I can control this feeling I have about the dating games, but its really hard and it makes me pretty frustrated. If I like someone, I want them to know. If I dont like someone, I want them to know that too.
Wouldnt it be nice to know if someone kissed you, it meant they liked you? If I kiss someone, I like them. If I dont kiss them, I am not interested. I just cant really pretend otherwise. (honesty note: I have kissed someone I was interested in. A couple someones. Everyone else does it right? I'll give it a shot and see what its like. There must be something good that comes from it..... WRONG! It was horrible.)
It is so common in society, to kiss someone just because its fun, or because they are cute, or you will get bragging rights, or whatever it may be. Why?
I have heard my grandparents talk about courting. I dont think I have ever had the opportunity to experience it, but I think it goes something like you meet someone, decide they are interesting and fun. Then you establish a friendship. You get to know who they really are and wether they have a personality like you or a personality you like to be around. Maybe you will find out that they are very honest and giving and servicable (is that a word?) Maybe you will find out that they lie about the dumbest things and will lose their integrity to save .50 cents.
If they are someone you like to be around you establish a true friendship, meaning you can trust them, they like to be around you, you can talk to each other ect.. Not one of those friendships that is an I'll only be your friend if you makeout with me, or I will tell you whatever you want to hear so that I can get some or I get to use you later on down the road.
I have friends, and then I have the friends I trust. The numbers are very un-even. I like to think the ones I really trust and want to be around the most are the ones I have spent lots of time with. Not just one or two nights.
I was taught that dating is meant to be a good experience where you can make lots of good friends, why do I seem to lose more friends from dating than I do making them? Probably because of this quote right here ...
"You wanted a kiss. Is that what you want? Are you prepared for everything that comes with that kiss? cause it doesnt just end with a fade out. There are repercussions. Hearts get broken. Friendships get ruined. Your entire life could fall apart because of one kiss. That's what you have to look foward to. Do yourself a big favor.. don't rush it"
I guess after this little rant and rave I have gone on, what I am trying to say is......
I wish when someone kissed you, it meant they really loved you.
Time to go fishing? Yea Probably :)