So man, will you believe me when I tell you, You're quite perfect. :)
Here is to the man who is harder on himself than I would like him to be. He is a good man and he inspires me.
This song is about being brave... and I love it. :)
A quality of spirit that enables you to face danger of pain without showing fear.
Complete confidence in a person, plan or set of beliefs etc.
A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness.
To consider circumstances, especially those that can not be changed, as satisfactory
SO.... Its been about a year now since I have added to this little blog. Thanks to pintrest and Facebook I rarely feel the need to write anything I guess. I suppose I have shared my thoughts or ideas on those or just shared them with people around me. I have spent a little more time alone lately and it always gets me thinking. Sometimes that is good and sometimes that is bad. Sometimes its both.
I have been reading the news and watching a little more TV since I moved into my new place. My old place didn't have TV. I can honestly say it makes me feel depressed to read it and listen to it.
For 8 hours a day I am on the computer at work and I read news. The other day the headlines were all about people dieing in tornados , a man who tried to kill his wife, a little boy who killed his little brothers and all sorts of horrible negative stuff. It usually doesn't bother me but for some reason that day it did. It bothered me enough that I actually wrote a note of suggestion to one of the news companies.
When I get depressed or down I have to do something physical. That is usually running or riding the horse. The other day was one of those days. I was depressed, stressed, a little angry at others and even more frustrated with myself for feeling the way I was feeling. It was pretty bad. Bad enough that it kept me awake for all but two hours of the night. This girl does not have a hard time sleeping.... unless something is bothering her a rather significantly huge amount. I can sleep through anything and have been accused of sleep talking and walking. To get to the point of this post though, after I got off work that day I had to MOVE. If I sat still any longer I would break. My body had to move and my mind did too. It could not stay in the place it was any longer either. When my body is moving, my mind usually is too. Sooo I went running. I tried to run down by the river but the trail was closed so I had to hunt for a new place. The next place I found was by campus. There is also a pretty large cemetery that I could run in as well. Perfect!
So I start running and then I get to the cemetery and I am running along and thinking about when I used to work for the city mowing the lawns at the cemetery. I loved that job! I didn't like cemeteries prior to that job and I would never go to one, let alone go running in one for fun. Then I started reading headstones as I was running a long and it all hit me again. I was instantly sad for all of these people I didn't even know. The part that made me sad was seeing all of the little trinkets and signs and garden things that were placed there by the people who loved and missed them. It was hurting my heart to think about Mr. Godfrey who's wife is now a widow and learning to live without her best friend. Mrs. Carter who is wishing she could still hold her little boy. and so on...
This running in the cemetery was not a good idea after all. My body was moving but my mind was still in the spot it was earlier. So I ran faster and I ran out the gate of the cemetery and around the block to finish my run.
I had to do something to get my mind off of everything though. I found someone that I could leave a little positive note and some treats to surprise them when they got home. That was all it took. I also read some stuff about being inspiring and it made me realize that even I can inspire someone. It really doesn't take that much to inspire others. I think we think its harder than it really is. For me, I think to be inspiring you just have to do the things you know to be right and don't waiver. You just have to decide and do it. Just try it.
My problem is doing it consistently. I think I am a roller coaster if inspiration. During my ups I am usually probably ok at inspiring others but the ups most often followed a down. I apologize to those of you who have stuck with me during the whole ride and I am sorry I am not always inspiring. Just know that I will continue to try.
Good People bring out the Good in people.
Be Good :)